I was never an immature child, but I’ve grown up so much. In fact, I’m still growing up. I think I’d like to believe I’m a complete adult. But, despite many telling me I am wise beyond my years, I know that I have so much more to experience. Having said that, even as I grow older, it’s the little things throughout my childhood, that remind me of innocence and that there is more to life than work and the stresses of every day existence.
My ‘younger self’, plays a huge role in who I am. I’m not naive enough to believe that I will receive my ‘happy ending’, but, as a hopeless romantic, I’d like to believe that I will.
It’s being able to revisit my childhood that really gives me peace. Sometimes I wish I could go back to those simpler days. But no. They were of innocence, true, childish happiness and inexperience. They make me laugh and smile every time I do think of them. But I wouldn’t give up where I am now, for anything in the world.
In some ways, I’m completely the same. In others, I couldn’t be more different. My dominant sense of humour, loyalty and compassion for others, has never faltered, much like my determination to work hard and make something of myself. But my view on life, principles and my knowledge is completely different.
This all started from watching Boy Meets World. Have you watched it? I used to watch is really regularly with my brothers and often my parents. I remember laughing, and in some of the older seasons, not fully understanding what I now know were sexual connotations! The characters, the music, the quotes. It all completely took me back. I’ve been feeling so nostalgic!
How did I get here?
My life seems to have gone by in a blink. I’m 22, I’ve barely lived in the grand scheme of things. But if it’s one thing I DO know, it’s that there is absolutely NOTHING wrong, with holding on to your inner child. Perhaps even letting them out to play, some time. Because you know what? When I do revisit childhood memories, it gives me peace and a calm like very few other things could give me. I know I was lucky to have a good upbringing, but the brilliance of childhood is that no matter what you experienced, there was still that innocence and faith and complete devotion to friends and family. Nothing got in the way of that.
It’s not something to be taken lightly, in my opinion!
I promise I won’t be so morose or serious next time I write! I just thought I’d share these warm fuzzy feelings I’ve been having, with every one. I hope, if you read this, that you too, will pay a visit to your childhood and it’l give you a little smile!